No one told me that your WHY may change as life changes. When I first started my Power Pusher journey, my mother was my why. Don’t get me wrong, her story still inspires and drives me. As a matter of fact, you can read it here. However, I’ve lived some more and I’ve lived through some very interesting experiences. Hmmm, I see a little something that keeps popping up, and it doesn’t sit well with me. Let me explain further.

I have experienced one too many occasions of giving my all to others and, in the end, receiving betrayal as my reward. One too many times, after giving my all, I’ve been left to pick up the pieces alone. I have watched too many walk away without any regard for the personal ramifications caused by their selfish actions and exits. I observed those persons robbing me of my creativity, intelligence, and uniqueness to their benefit while doing nothing genuine to “personally” build, thank, or publicly acknowledge me. They drank their fill and gave only what ceased to inconvenience them. Ha! Some dared to become insulted when I observed and addressed their hypocrisy.

I recently experienced betrayal on a level that left me stunned. Honestly, I’m still recovering. It was the betrayal of the century and definitely of my lifetime😳.  I will share at a later time, so don’t ask 😉. My latest betrayer came in God’s name and used time as their witness of authenticity. In retrospect, I let my guard down lower than wisdom advised. Maybe not. I’m certain that I was supposed to love and trust on such a level. Either way, I was not prepared for the lesson taught.

Have you ever placed all of your eggs 🪺 into one basket? Well, all of my eggs were in their basket. Oh, but God🙌🏾! He taught me to always save something for myself. Thankfully, I am the hen 🐓AND producer of those eggs 🥚. I may have placed all of my eggs into their basket, but I did not sit in their basket💃🏾. I know how to reproduce, and this time, I’m putting my eggs into one basket, MINE. The inspirational wind of God impressed upon my spirit, “Markeida Faithe, do what you’ve never done before BANK ON YOU.”

Moving forward, I’m banking on me by utilizing all that God has equipped me with and I’m not slowing down to pick up passengers. My drive and aim is to pull down to earth what I see in the realm of the spirit concerning my life. My drive is to pour out until empty. I have within me all that’s necessary to change and maximize my life. And that’s exactly what this Power Pusher intends to do! I can. I must. I will.

I could easily justify solely focusing on myself, but my heart considers all of the men and women who aren’t as strong as I am. My heart pangs for those who aren’t as gifted and resourceful as I am. My heart screams in anguish for those who placed their hen and eggs into baskets filled with holes. Devastation plagues my soul as I consider the men and women who are drowning in despair because they don’t know Abba's father’s love and haven’t experienced deliverance or the necessary layers of inner healing. Those babies don’t know that they are equipped with everything needed to manifest a full and prosperous life. They must be told that they don’t have to fall to anyone else’s mercy or fall apart in fear of what’s next when/if betrayal comes. They NEED to KNOW that they can be loyal, supportive, AND saved while banking on themselves.

What I last experienced was enough to embarrass, humiliate, and silence me. By God’s design, I had done more than enough deliverance and soul work that the betrayal couldn’t rock me to my soul. I understand that it’s Satan behind the irritants. I also understand WHAT he’s after, and my answer is HELL NO‼️ I’m standing ten toes down. I am creating the kind of life that ensures that I NEVER again walk through betrayal on any level unequipped or to the point that I can’t quickly recover. Every area of my life will match the Power that I exude. I will ensure that I am armed with what’s necessary to move in freedom, and so will my son. He will experience a legacy of freedom because his mother made the decision to FINALLY bank on her just as he told her to. My storehouses shall be filled. And in addition, the blessings of God will chase me down and overtake me. The following shall become my new reality.

‘Markeida Faithe, I gave you that land where you did not have to work. I gave you cities that you did not have to build. And now you live in that land and those cities, and you eat from vineyards and olive trees you did not plant.”  Joshua 24:13 (NCV) 

I vow to spend the rest of my life helping men and women of God get into position “internally” so that they can arise and work what Abba has placed within them. Soooo, if you’re reading this, it’s time to awaken your dormant power and push it to the forefront. I also challenge you to discover, write, and rock your WHY! It’s past time for you to bank on YOU. 

Markeida Faithe, LICSW

The Power Pusher

p.s. This girl from Pinewood, SC, has something to prove!